Nalene

Writer's Block: Instant attraction

2009-11-10T01:45:24Z

Do you think romantic chemistry is instant or evolving? Have you ever given someone a second (or third) chance and lived to regret it? Have you ever fallen in love with someone you didn't particularly like or desire at first?

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A.) A bit of both. Usually instant attraction fades and if an evolving attraction isn't present, things just fizzle out. But if two people are able to adapt to the instant pizazz fading and evolve, then things should be just fine.

B.) Unfortunately, but those were learning experiences I suppose.

C.) Yes.

Well hello, Earth...

2009-07-04T10:05:48Z

been a while, yeah? So what's new magoo? Ah, not much really. Just sitting around, same-o same-o...

finally got the LOJ costume done... elaborate is a good descriptor.

4th of july again will be spent in S.C. watching the fireworks at my aunt's house. Good time assured indeed.

LOJ is next weekend and I am nervous about the costume staying together... I mean, I expect mishaps of course... there's no way this costume will go through the whole night without being a royal pain in my arse at some time and may possibly just fall apart. Let's just say, I'm expecting the worst and hoping for the best. *le sigh*

Things are okay... okay, things are actually pretty good. Married life with my love is nice though I'm still adjusting to being someone's wife. I'm also kicking royal bukkake at work and not stopping to take names. This is slightly disconserting as it makes me stand out as someone who can actually do something... I'm not sure that I want that title. heh. being someone who can just do the job well enough not to get fired is pretty good by me but unfortunately, I think I've gone up an above the radar and am now effectively screwed. I've put in so much organization last week at work it isn't even funny, my co-workers have their jaw all agape and my VP is loving me on this shift and asked some pointed questions about my willingness to take work home and made comments about how I'm probably way over qualified for my position.. umm yeah. duh. of course I am, but I chose this path for a reason... I'm tired of guillotines, they give me headaches. I've no interest in ruling when my words are meaningless...

A wedding story

2009-06-03T15:08:10Z

Alright, so, you're probably saying something like "Married? WTF?" Heh. Join the club. =]

Constantin and I were married on May 30th 2009 in San Clemente , CA . My Aunt was kind enough to let us hold the ceremony at her beautiful home that overlooks the ocean. Why? Well, because we love each other and had to make a quick choice and we chose one another over our jaded views on marriage.

The next question is probably, “Well, why wasn’t I invited?” The answer is; I would have if I could have, at least the people on my friends list that I know pretty well. Unfortunately, we could only invite a small handful of people due to the amount of room and my aunt had concerns about the balcony holding up; a very valid concern considering she lost a nice chunk of her backyard in a mudslide a couple of years ago.

We didn’t have much time to plan (no, I am not preggers!); we only had 2 weeks, possibly less to prepare. I made the call to my wonderful Aunt and explained the situation. I told her that we were getting married, had thought about doing some cheesy-funny Vegas thing, but both hate Vegas. I asked her if we could hold the ceremony at her house so we could have some nice pictures for his Mom (and of course something nice for us). Well, it went from there. I called my Step-Mom and let her know and she was ecstatic even though she HADN’T MET HIM YET (Neither had my Dad!)!! Ha Ha! Aunt Sandy had and I’m sure she probably told my Mom how nice Constantin is. =]

My sister signed on as my Maid of Honor, and Oscar as Best Man. After working on some details over flowers and cake with my Mom, I realized I was quickly becoming overwhelmed. Working graveyard and planning wedding details was difficult. I decided to pass those duties along to my sister and she happily, okay, maybe not happily, accepted.

It was a very emotional time for me, I found myself in tears almost once or more per day for a number of reasons. I had to process a lot of residual emotional junk; I knew I had to or I wouldn’t be able to go through with it. I had made a promise to myself that if I were to marry again (my first marriage was just blah with me), that I would marry for the right reasons, whatever they were and that the person I married would do the same. I guess I still hadn’t quite concluded what the ‘right’ reasons were. I had to be decidedly decided that we were getting married for the ‘right’ reasons in a real quick hurry. Sure, it was quite obvious that we love each other, kind of a no-brainer, but you’d be surprised what demons will crop up when you’re contemplating tying the knot. Ultimately, I decided- we decided- that getting married because we want to stay together is a pretty darned good reason, heck, maybe even a little romantic… like Romeo and Juliet, without all the death and silly language. =-]

So we wrestled with time and guests and rings and food and drink and blah blah blah blah… And it turned out simply beautiful. I even got me a fancy dress. My Aunt, Dad, Sister, Joey, Violet, Oscar and our master of ceremonies, Elisa really had their game faces on! Thanks again guys should you read this. I’ve worked in a lot of situations that have required quick organization and let me say, you guys made the impossible, possible and we were awestruck. Thank you. :-)

Here was the jist of the day:

1.) Violet armed with her camera came down and saw me while I was sequestered. She took some very nice shots. My Dad met me down there as time drew nearer for the ceremony.

2.) We postponed for 30 minutes and waited for those who were running late.

3.) Joey plays his guitar and sings a song he wrote for us for the ceremony. Instead of the wedding march, I walked down the aisle to a song written by one of my best friends.

4.) My Dad gives me away to my soon to be husband.

5.) Elisa performs a beautiful and nearly flawless ceremony

6.) We kiss after we are announced =-]

7.) Oscar gives a great cute and funny toast speech

8.) My sister gives a wonderful speech and I’m so proud and happy!

9.) We toast

10.)We all drink champagne

11.)We sign formal stuff

12.)We eat the catered Boston Market that did an amazing job and the food was pretty good!

13.)We toss the garter and the bouquet.

14.)We dance our first dance as husband and wife to Billy Idol’s ‘White Wedding’ (thanks sis!)

Constantin’s Mom, Dad and a couple of his friends watched via Skype… God how I love technology!!!

Everything went off incredibly well for there being no rehearsal at all and there being many last minute changes. Thanks friends and family for your support on our fabulous day!

so here it is...

2009-06-01T03:17:40Z

The big secret ;-)

THANKS VIOLET!!! =D

Twas a wonderful day indeed! Better than I expected and the only problem? The wind. Otherwise? A motha fuckin awesome day!!!

suckitup!

2009-04-24T09:26:50Z

And I did and I am.

Oi

Depeche Mode in Hollywood

Says it all.

Yeah... sorta like this

2009-04-10T12:30:54Z

Quarterly review

2009-03-10T09:05:49Z

Damn... heh. I was reflecting on what I've gotten done this year so far. And well, I must say, I've gotten a whole lot more accomplished than I had imagined I would! Yay! So far in 2009 I have:

1. Written the rough draft of an SEO book

2. Designed 3 websites - they aren't built out yet content wise but still

3. Moved all of my sites to my own server which has been fully configured to handle mail, DNS and has a C-panel interface

4. Completed putting together my music studio (enough to be able to do something anyway!)

5. composed a song - it's just an instrumental practice piece and needs to be mixed and mastered, but still. .. lol

6. Moving in to a new apartment at the end of the month

7. Took a photo series and may show this month... maybe

8. Drew a few things

Not a monumental amount of things... but enough to feel like I've finally gotten past the starting gate. =] Perhaps I should target out the next quarter???

1. Finish content builds on the IP sites and have the other sites designed at least

2. Get second draft of SEO book completed

3. make 3 songs from start to finish, including mixing and mastering

4. sign up for Fall semester drawing classes at GCC so I can get that damn Graphic novel done properly I need minimally a basic drawing class, life drawing and a color class. That would make me a happy Nalene.

5. Continue taking photos for the fun of it

Hmm, that doesn't sound like much =[ But there is stuff I need to learn before I can get into the dirt on certain things.

CS 4 Ext XXXoooo!

2009-03-05T12:18:51Z

Last mockups of those hollywood shots using CS4 rather than 3. I put frames and mats on them. I am pleased.

need moar ghetto?

2009-03-05T08:49:43Z

I think I'm a magnet for weird. I'm walking down Glendale Blvd in Glendale and I see the following. This one is titled "Ghetto BBQ - Waiting for the sun"

Another title I had thought of was "Flight of the would-be McNuggets"

Writer's Block: Desert Island Time

2009-03-02T09:55:31Z

You're packing your bag for that magical desert island that happens to have electricity, a TV, and a DVD player—what five DVDs do you take with you?

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Only 5? Damn.

Okay:

fight club
snatch
princess bride
office space
amadeus

Writer's Block: Priorities

2009-02-28T21:41:33Z

What quality do you think is most important in a significant other?

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I think the most important thing in an SO is that they are real and unpretentious. I think that is what I admire most about my love. He is just himself and I think it is great! Others have commented on how he's just a real guy and that is awesome! Someone even mentioned that last night.

It's really nice to have that quality in someone though I must admit it's hard to believe because it is such a rare quality!

I'm lucky. =]

Writer's Block: Peevish

2009-01-27T11:29:30Z

Too many LJers to list have submitted this question—what is your biggest pet peeve?

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Tonight's peeve...

The cleaning woman in the office didn't do the dishes and I cannot make coffee because there is no room in the sink to clean the maker! "Why don't you move the dishes in the sink" answer: Because it's not my fucking job to maneuver dishes around at my workplace. That's why.

Writer's Block: Listening In

2009-01-25T03:08:46Z

Even if you're not actively eavesdropping, you can hear some interesting things. What's the best conversation you've ever overheard?

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I was standing outside of my work in Irvine @ about 7am on a Saturday. Two cyclist go down the street. One of the guys was talking (yelling) about his sexual escapades with some chick. It was funny, because it wasn't like he was being some dickwad trying to be cool. He was just being a dood having a conversation with his buddy have a cycle on a Saturday morn in the business district of Irvine. My guess is, he couldn't sense how loud he was talking. I Lol'd.

Milk. It does my body baaad...

2008-11-30T23:33:25Z

Well, I think I've found one of the culprits to my cough and that is milk. Yes I smoke and that doesn't make things any better, I know, I'm not THAT stupid. But I have been noticing that if I have a glass of milk, I'm coughing seriously yucky crap. I had ovaltine yesterday then it was *cough* *cough* felt a bit better this morning, has moar ovaltine please and then *cough* *cough*. so yea, I guess I also need to lay off of the dairy. Soy for me again.

In other news, C is at a game and I am le bored and am debating whether to go back to sleep or to draw. I think some coffee and drawing sounds more funner but my body is still a bit tired. Meh.

Oh, i love this song...

Portishead: Roads

Mmmmelllooow and sad.

post holiday post...

2008-11-29T22:00:41Z

Thanksgiving was nice, I cooked all day and of course we ate in 20 minutes. lol. That's how it goes. The turkey came out uber moist because I'm a turkey cooking phenom.
We have some goofy pics because we are goofy. I'll post once I get a hold of them.
My bronchitis is nearly cured! I think the combo of the Clear Air and Antibiotics did the trick and did it up real good. If you have allergy, asthma or bronchi issues, I HIGHLY recommend "Health Concerns: Clear Air" holy cow that shit is awesome!
I also took zinc to help keep my sinuses dried out. Seems to have helped with the runny nose.
=] i iz happy. I iz bored. C is sleeping because he is now officially a vampire too. He carried me off to bed last night cause I kept falling asleep on him, literally. It was too cute and sweet! ^-^
I'm doing laundry now because there are no gnomes that will come in the middle of the night to do it for me. Damn.
Oh, we went and saw the new James Bond last night. It was good, but I didn't see the Bond prior to it and didn't get some of the story line. Luckily Bond stories aren't too terribly in depth anyway so I wasn't completely lost. After the movie we hit up BJ's because I was hungry and didn't wanna dick around looking for some place to eat on a Friday night. I had the cilantro pesto pizza. It was pretty yummy though kinda greasy.

I am losing track

2008-11-28T15:44:46Z

of things we have to do for the remainder of the year...

Eh:

-Dec 5th Friday (WTF! December - GUH!) - Da Pickles or pseudo step daughter's B-day Party AND Pseudo husbands work XMAS party! Fuuuuuck, I'm glad she's turning 15, I can bail from the bowling party to attend the Xmas party.
-Dec 8th - Pickles actual birthday
-Dec 12th is it? Guh, yes, Friday. My work holiday party.
-Dec 17th Wednesday - Pickles concert thing
-Dec 19th: Penciled in Ruin absinthe debauchery **I KNEW I was forgetting something!**
Dec 21st - pseudo husband leaves for Germany *whines - just a little*

ummmm, ummmm, I know I'm leaving stuff out, ummmmm *whimpers* Must look at old post... brb. lol.

Why do I have a feeling the list is gonna grow? My aunt wants us to visit her in San Clemente again, which will be GREAT in any other month than December! Talked to C and we'll probably go first week or two in January. I'll plan it, we are waiting to celebrate Xmas (exchange gifts ^-^) for when he gets back - I totally stalled for time, I'm having serious hair loss problems trying to figure out what to get him!

He told me last night that I'm easy to buy for... I can only guess he means that worst case scenario, he can always get me some shoes and he's FTW... meh... too bad that theory is TRUE! I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT I WANT... lol. The stuff I want that I can't get myself is spensive, I generally buy whatever I want whenever. Meh. Umm, errr. Hmmm.

Thanksgiving deconstructed...

2008-11-28T15:32:29Z

Hm, this is kinda interesting

http://www.oyate.org/resources/shortthanks.html

YAY! I think I figured out what to get him!

2008-11-28T13:51:53Z

Oh FINALLY! Now I just have to find the perfect one for the Perfect Drug.

I love this video

2008-11-28T12:31:37Z

The song ain't to bad either

LJ Cutting to more vids

Oooh and I loooove

Heh. I guess I'm on a weird video streak

This makes me sad. I remember when this song was released, years after Kurt's death, it was joyous and sad at the same time.

It's not a proper rock fest one woman party without some System...
Everybody's going to the party have a real good time...

Intersting cover by KoRn

I'll wrap it up with Perfect Drug for reasons only some know. ;)

One more because I'm avoiding drawing

2008-11-27T23:32:53Z

You Are: 60% Dog, 40% Cat

You are a nice blend of cat and dog.

You're playful but not too needy. And you're friendly but careful.

And while you have your moody moments, you're too happy to stay upset for long.

Are You More Cat or Dog?

A toast..

2008-11-27T23:18:42Z

To getting to spend TG with C and Lauren. It's not as big of a shindig as I am used to attending/throwing on the holidays, but I think it is fitting. Nice, peaceful, quiet and warm, it almost resembles the year, full of happiness and love.

I'm happy.

Pretty true =]

2008-11-27T21:57:21Z

You Are a Maine Coon Cat

You tend to be loving and playful around your family and friends.

But when you're around strangers you tend to be a bit reserved.

You are intuitive. You understand human emotions well.

You do best when you are around people. You don't like being left alone.

What Breed of Cat Are You?

Happy Thanksgiving (Slaughter day)

2008-11-27T19:39:14Z

Whenever there is a really useless holiday such as today's I try to really inject meaning into it. Since this is a day where we are meant to give thanks for what we have then that is what I'll focus on.

I am thankful for the following:

-I'm thankful that 2008 went in the direction it was meant to go. It was a year of evolution and so far, one of the best years I've had despite the bumps during the journey.
-I'm thankful for being a strong individual. I feel like I can confront and survive anything.
-I'm thankful that I finally learned what true love is and found it isn't the dramatic 'Romeo & Juliette' shit. It is warm and comforting, it is home.
-I'm thankful that I get to celebrate the holidays with my daughter, I'm so glad she is home and doing better.
-I'm thankful that Karma takes care of me properly.
-I'm thankful for the ability to look past strife in order to see it's necessity for future roads
-I'm thankful I have finally gotten over my drama addiction and have a pretty good drama filter in my life now.
-I'm thankful that America seems to have finally hit bottom and is more active in it's own future
-I'm thankful that I don't sweat the small stuff so much anymore
-I'm thankful for my Constantin, he makes me feel like the luckiest girl in the universe
-I'm thankful that 2009 will probably be an even better year.
-I'm thankful for my loving family

I'm thankful for so much more, I could write all day but alas, I gotta cook soon.

Hope everyone has a safe holiday and reflects on what they have as opposed to what they don't have.

Love and noodles,
Nalene

Ugh...

2008-11-27T03:23:52Z

Took first dose of Antibiotics, Azithromycin, only have to take it for 5 day in total. Also taking veramyst, not sure what it is for, it goes up my nose. Yay. Coughing like crazy now but it is nice and loose, my nose is being a fucktard. C is gonna bring me some soup. He's the perfect man I swear! Seriously, the mold was broken when they made him.
I'm not working AGAIN tonight. It sucks because I'm losing and EXTRA $250 in holiday pay. GRRRRRR!
Can't go to TDK's tomorrow because I'm sick and I don't want to spread it around, I hope someone follows my example and decides that perhaps going out ill isn't a good idea, but somehow, I doubt it.
I'm going to cook a Turkey since I'm stuck home. Not sure if C is coming over to eat with us or going to TDK's, either is fine. I want him to have a good time and I'm probably not the poster "For a good time call:" chick.
Gonna draw tonight since I slept most of the day, I'll probably end up sleeping tonight, luckily the cough isn't keeping me awake or preventing me from falling asleep... luckily.

Bronchitis...

2008-11-26T19:36:22Z

Phew! But.. not. lol. Whoo meds. lol.